My Wish

Please don't let this season go astray
I really need good feelings everyday
This has been a very hard year
I've struggled to feel you near
I know I've let my life get in the way
Sometimes even forgotten to pray
So my wish for this Christmas season
Is that I can fill it with a greater reason
Not with gifts and candy and such
That isn't what matters much
But to find within myself ways to be more giving
I've known all along this is how I should be living
Even simple things like being more kind
Because I've allowed myself to go spiritually blind
But most important that I need to seek
Is being more humble and meek
To remember thy example set before me
And not forget to get down on my knee
This is my cry for you to abide
Because I need you by my side

Why Can't They See?

Sometimes I worry about being a mother
How do I teach these girls to love one another?
I have come to a place that I am lost
How do I help them see the hidden cost?
To not cause such hurt and pain?
Why do they look at each other with such disdain?
These actions are getting worse
They can hardly converse!
Left out and deprived is what they think
I just pray for them to get along, to sync!
Why do they not care what they say?
All this negativity makes our home seem grey.
Someone help me to understand
What happend, why did we disband?
What can I do to help these girls?
To open their eyes and see they are my pearls?
I want them to cherish each other
And for me, to just to be a better mother....

Thanksgiving Dinner

Dear Food, why do I love you so much?
When you do not repay the love as such
I love the strawberries and cream,
but then you make me bust out my seam
Mashed potatoes and gravy
sadly makes my thighs all wavy
The smell of fresh warm rolls in the air
reasures that feeling of "I don't care!"
Celery and nuts added to my stuffing
it all turns into Monday morning huffing and puffing
Don't forget about those jello salads
unfortunately makes my tummy sing grumbling ballads
Of course I have some turkey and ham
along with a sticky sweet yam
And I strongly have this conviction
that you are my one and only addiction
Cuz here I am stuffed to the brim
telling myself I'll make it to the gym
Just so I can justify
having one more slice of pie!

Today Was A Day That Was Meant For Me

Today was a day that was meant for me,
Thankfully it began with me on my knee.
Then rushing and hurring to get about,
And enter's my mind the full on doubt.
What will I feel today? If anything at all?
Unknown at the time, but it would end with a bawl.
You see...
Today was a day that was meant for me,
Heavenly Father, I know has heard my plea.
Feeling lonely and lost most of the time,
Trying to work towards my prime.
Quietly sitting with an open heart,
The soft wisperings and burning begins to start.
You see...
Today was a day that was meant for me,
Sometimes I still have the feeling to flee.
Sadly these feelings I can not avoid,
Even though I've seen other lives destroyed.
Then again comes the burning,
And I truely feel myself yearning.
So I stop and say to myself...
Today was a day that was meant for me,
For I know my spirit can be free.
Grateful for the Gospel I know and love,
A loving Heavenly Father I speak of.
Seeing his foundation solid and true,
For today I truely grew.
And now I know....
Today was a day that was meant for me,
And thankfully it will end with me on my knee.

The Drive In

Layin here under that cloudy dark sky
Feelin the heavy cool breeze pass by
Listening to the children laugh
Everything around me feels like a summer bath
Quiet and peaceful just for a moment
I see the balloon that's been tied on for adornment
Watching that big beautiful screen
Taking in the people, cars, smells, the entire sceen
Speakers rumblin
Kids fumblin
Eating Reese's Piece's
Forgetting that my waistline increases
Bright scenes flash across the night air
Lovin this time I have to share
With five girls and one lonely boy
They all bring me such joy!
Marrae's asleep right by my knee
Talia's on her texting spree
Cherith and Logan are sitting outside
Kamarah's in the middle feeling denied
Katlin's on her phone
This would be no fun alone
Doesn't matter what we watch here
I just love my atmosphere
Sadly it's already time to go
Packing up under that Drive In glow
I'm lookin up at that cloudy dark sky
Sensing the heavy cool breeze makes me sigh
Oh how I love this feeling
It's emotionally healing
The last song is being played
Like my own personal serenade
Beautifully simple, I'm trying to imply
I'm just not ready to say goodbye

Men Like You Are Hard To Find

Grandpa,
I love you
Men like you are so very few
I have this picture in my mind
of you so loving and so kind
You helped teach me right from wrong
You made me feel like I belong
I will never forget my summers with you
Listening to the cows go "moo"
"Let's go get a soda" you would say to me
And of course I would agree
You would let me pick out a treat
Or sometimes sit in the driver's seat!
Driving the tractor, playing in the cottonseed
Climbing the haystacks, knowing there's calf's to feed
You taught me about work
Even though I am sure I gave you a smirk
And as I grew, you were still there
Right beside me with me unaware
The feel of your wiskers against my face,
The comfort of your fatherly embrace
The blessings you gave me when I was sad,
It's true for me you were more like my dad
The gentle words you spoke to me
Your deep soothing voice when you were on your knee
I love you Grandpa,
And I know in my heart and mind
Men like you are hard to find

My Spin Class!

You're here, so lets go! lets go!
It's ok to start a little slow
Everyone warm up, it's a must!
It's important to help our bodies adjust!
Now, let's kick it into high gear!
You'll love the difference it makes in your rear!
Wooo hooo! Wooo hooo!
You're all quite the crew
TIME TO TURN UP THAT TENSION!!
This is our flab prevention!
Pop those booties up and down
Pull in those tummies and give me a frown
Now push it hard, push it fast!
I promise you'll have a blast!
Crank it up, lets go, go, go!!!
Keep it up, we have a great flow!
Wooo hooo! Wooo hooo!
Feelin like you're going to spew?
Guess it's time to take a quick drink
Turn on the fan, cuz we're startin to stink!
Changin up that music, takin it nice and slow
Move that torso in and low
Pull that bottom off the seat
I can see you so don't cheat!
Twist that tension to the max!
I better see all flat backs!
Wooo hooo! Wooo hooo!
We're almost through!
Shakin up the music to a good beat!
Take a look back, do you feel complete?
But before you go on your way,
Make sure you cool it down, so stay!!
You worked so hard, you're all so great!
Make sure you've checked your heart rate!
Don't you just love the feel of a good sweat!
Hope to see you Monday, now don't forget!

What do you want?

So what is taking me so long to do the things I want to do?
Is it simple things like everyday life or even maybe the flu?
Why do I think my life hasn't gone anywhere, but everyone else has?
Why do I always see that everyone else has so much more pizazz?
Are you set with your life and is this just me?
Sometimes I feel like I'm just sittin' on the pot waiting to pee...
Really sometimes I feel like I have been busy
So much so that most the time I am completely dizzy!
But then I look around and guess what I see
A flee, a bill with a huge fee, Kamarah with her scraped knee, the broken ac, my dead tree, and where in the crap is my key, and on that bathroom floor.... pee, but it didn't come from me!!
So what is taking me so long to do the things I want to do?
Oh crap, I just ran out of bread, milk and of course shampoo!
What do you mean you don't know where your clothes are?
Why didn't anyone put away the peanut butter jar?
Oh gross! I just stepped on some soggy cereal!
Guess it's time to get out the antibacterial
Ummm.. what was I saying?
I had to get some yarn for my mom and her crocheting
Oh ya! So what is taking me so long to do the things I want to do?
Me-"Talia hurry up it's time to go! " Talia-"but mom I still can't find my shoe!!"
Maybe I'm missing something underlying?
Cherith-"Talia is wearing my barrette!" Me-"and so you're crying?"
Really, I teach yoga I am sooooo zen!!
"Kamarah how the heck did you hurt yourself again?"
Wait, didn't I just go to the store?
Me-"Where is Marrae?" Talia-"avoiding her chore"
Again.... So what is taking me so long to do the things I want to do?
Nothing, I am doing what I want to do, and it's always been all of you!

I Would Take Your Place If I Could

What is it with these days and nights
That make it so hard to go without fights
I know I don't always understand
Me, an only child wasn't so grand
I didn't have someone to poke
Or laugh with and joke
Nobody to steal clothes from
Or have them eat my last cookie crumb
No one was there to tell me I'm wrong
Nor sing together our favorite song
Watching TV all by myself
Or trying to reach something high on the shelf
Playing ball with no one there
Never staying up late doing our hair
Nobody to blame for loosing my stuff
Or read about a dragon named Puff
My days and nights were spent alone
Hiding under the covers afraid of the unknown
So for me I just don't understand
Brothers making a wrong demand
Sisters who want to fight
Only to prove they are right
All I want to ask of you
Is look at this from my point of view
Cherish that brother who would make you cry
Or got you in trouble by telling a lie
Support your sister that cut up your favorite hat
And ran over your white fluffy cat
Love them no matter where they are
Ponder the memories you've shared thus far
All the bad and of course the good
I would take your place, If I could